How do you respond to the deep losses that come into our lives, threatening to shatter souls?
If I could see you face to face, I would love to sit down with a cup of tea and hear your story. And talk about the ways God is weaving hope into the midst of our brokenness. After walking through the heartbreak of 4 miscarriages, I have been forced to wrestle with what what the Bible says about God and how that relates to the pain I have experienced. By God’s grace (and lots of people’s prayers) I have found that in my deepest and darkest pain, God’s love is always deeper and more persistent.
I’m honored to share with you this journey of reflecting on those moments which, like the first rays of dawn stealing across a dark landscape, remind us of God’s Love in the very midst of grief and unanswered questions.
“The way of the righteous is like the first gleam of dawn, which shines ever brighter until the full light of day.” Proverbs 4:18
My favorite blog posts:
When I Don’t Know What To Believe Anymore
When life came crashing down and I found myself in a dark time of not knowing what to believe anymore, I needed tangible proof of God’s Love. Woven into the Jewish tabernacle and the Acacia tree is such a clear picture of Jesus on the cross, with a whiplashed back and a crown of thorns…
God Remembers Our Losses
I felt like God had left me alone to struggle through my grief from 3 miscarriages. But 3 miracles on Mother’s Day showed me so clearly that God understands the loss we experience, and cares deeply about our hearts.
When The Pain Doesn’t Make Sense
When the pain doesn’t make sense, what if I have a deeper problem going on? One that God is always helping me with, and not even the deepest pain in my life can stop Him from helping me?
Update on my life: My husband and I became foster parents in 2018, which effectively replaced all my extra time to write on here. My leaky gut symptoms improved dramatically in early 2019 thanks to a variety of different treatments and God’s grace. I became pregnant in 2019 and despite my trepidation, we were blessed with a healthy daughter in January 2020. And then in 2021 we adopted our 2 beautiful daughters, so my hands and life are overflowing with baby snuggles and giggles. The Lord has been gracious to bring gentle healing to my heart, as I continue to seek Him and process my years of chronic illness and childlessness. I pray that God will use the simple words written in this blog to encourage and comfort your heart as you look to Him.